Ask

He hears us. We had left the restaurant early and in silence. I had said something wrong – I had pushed too hard. And apparently I had ruined the dinner. What followed was a long drive around in the dark while I was being told all of the things I did that were causing him … Continue reading Ask

Fighting for JOY

It’s the most wonderful time of year…right?  When the angels announced to the shepherds glad tidings which will be a source of great joy for all people!  When time seems to suddenly warp into overdrive and we are left stressing over spending budgets, which dessert to bring, when to fit in all the shopping, what … Continue reading Fighting for JOY

Surrounded

It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by YOU. I sang this worship song with tears streaming down my cheeks while driving to work. Driving has always been wonderful therapy for me to process fears and sorrows…mainly because when I am NOT in the car I am busy doing something and the processing … Continue reading Surrounded

Unmasking fear

Inaction never conquers fear. Staying in place and waiting for things to change never sets you free. I can’t sit cowering in the corner simply hoping that fear will go away. I have to learn to take action and confront it WHILE feeling it. I was on a suspension bridge 500 feet above the canyon.  … Continue reading Unmasking fear

Truth = Only Everything

Self confidence is one of the casualties of an abusive relationship.  You begin to doubt your own perception of things. Manipulators will make you feel like up is down and down is up and pretty soon you lose your bearings. It can be scary to lose your sense of judgment.   What if I am crazy?  … Continue reading Truth = Only Everything

The enemy in the mirror

I hated her.  I would put her down everyday, every chance I got.  I told her she was ugly, her hair was stupid, her legs were wierdly skinny, her teeth were too big, her face was lopsided.  I held nothing back.   I hated her for being shy.  She would blush, question herself a hundred times … Continue reading The enemy in the mirror