I read a fantastic quote today. It’s actually on my classroom wall, and has been for years, but for some reason I had stopped reading it. So I saw it again today for the first time all over again. The full effort IS the victory. Winning never satisfies like the effort does. So the act … Continue reading The never-ending journey
He hears us. We had left the restaurant early and in silence. I had said something wrong – I had pushed too hard. And apparently I had ruined the dinner. What followed was a long drive around in the dark while I was being told all of the things I did that were causing him … Continue reading Ask
We had been walking for about 6 miles when we emerged out of the forest onto the sandy dune. This wasn’t just any dune. This one was 500 feet tall and overlooked the beautiful turquoise Lake Superior. It was a sunny day and many other people were arriving at the dune from the parking area. … Continue reading A better perspective
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by YOU. I sang this worship song with tears streaming down my cheeks while driving to work. Driving has always been wonderful therapy for me to process fears and sorrows…mainly because when I am NOT in the car I am busy doing something and the processing … Continue reading Surrounded
We had a long overdue heart to heart. The Giver and I. It boiled down – as it usually does – to trust. You see my Creator and I had not been seeing eye to eye. But I had finally come to the point of acknowledging: What you are uncovering in me is worth discovering. What … Continue reading When I doubt the Giver
I can’t do this. It’s way over my head. I was rocking back and forth in my therapists office, uncontrollably, as if my guts were going into convulsions. This began happening to me when all of the truth about my marriage started coming to light, and the reality was not what I had been telling … Continue reading Who are you looking at?
Time is such a mystery. It can be both a compassionate healer, and also a thief that makes away with our youth as it keeps us busy trying to catch up to its daily demands. They say that it heals ALL things, but I disagree. I realized with the approach of 2020 that it will … Continue reading Time keeps on slipping…
It was 25 degrees outside and dark. I heard my husband try the front door and remembered that I had locked it. We recently moved out into the woods and I just feel safer with it locked when I’m home alone. I was wiping my hands to go help when I heard him get his … Continue reading Does the real deal even exist?
I want to wear black. Everyday. Because there is no color right now in my life. And I want to cover my head and throw ashes on it. I want everyone who sees me to know that my life is not OK in any way, that it has been forever altered and that a … Continue reading Permission to grieve
My dog has a superpower. She can see through trees and over hills and into dense bushes as if they weren’t even there! She can hear noises on another level, aware of movement way before I even know something is coming. And the more time I spend walking with her in the woods, the more … Continue reading X-ray vision