We had a long overdue heart to heart. The Giver and I. It boiled down – as it usually does – to trust. You see my Creator and I had not been seeing eye to eye. But I had finally come to the point of acknowledging: What you are uncovering in me is worth discovering. What … Continue reading When I doubt the Giver
I can’t do this. It’s way over my head. I was rocking back and forth in my therapists office, uncontrollably, as if my guts were going into convulsions. This began happening to me when all of the truth about my marriage started coming to light, and the reality was not what I had been telling … Continue reading Who are you looking at?
Time is such a mystery. It can be both a compassionate healer, and also a thief that makes away with our youth as it keeps us busy trying to catch up to its daily demands. They say that it heals ALL things, but I disagree. I realized with the approach of 2020 that it will … Continue reading Time keeps on slipping…
It was 25 degrees outside and dark. I heard my husband try the front door and remembered that I had locked it. We recently moved out into the woods and I just feel safer with it locked when I’m home alone. I was wiping my hands to go help when I heard him get his … Continue reading Does the real deal even exist?
I want to wear black. Everyday. Because there is no color right now in my life. And I want to cover my head and throw ashes on it. I want everyone who sees me to know that my life is not OK in any way, that it has been forever altered and that a … Continue reading Permission to grieve
My dog has a superpower. She can see through trees and over hills and into dense bushes as if they weren’t even there! She can hear noises on another level, aware of movement way before I even know something is coming. And the more time I spend walking with her in the woods, the more … Continue reading X-ray vision
You are not alone. I promise you that whatever you are facing today, hundreds – no, thousands – of others have faced as well. You are surrounded by past and present lives who have felt exactly what you are feeling. You are not alone. Yours is a unique combination of circumstances, a different mix, but … Continue reading Who’s got your back?
Today is such a significant day for so many in our country. Even for people who did not personally know someone in those two towers or planes, we all lost something that day and our country was changed forever. A few years ago I travelled to NYC with my sister to visit ground zero and … Continue reading Where the true battle lies
I was ambushed. Out of nowhere in particular, the cloud descended and enveloped me today. Suddenly the sunshine, usually so bright, was nowhere to be found. Have you ever had a day like that? Everything is blanketed in gray, heavy mist. And I know in my head that I am surrounded by good and beautiful … Continue reading Fighting through the fog