He hears us. We had left the restaurant early and in silence. I had said something wrong – I had pushed too hard. And apparently I had ruined the dinner. What followed was a long drive around in the dark while I was being told all of the things I did that were causing him … Continue reading Ask
I listen to podcasts during my daily commutes. I like self-help, growth-mindset empowering topics that help me to live my best life – or at least attempt to. I hear a variety of guests on these podcasts – people who have done amazing things. Inspiring stories of struggle and triumph and growth. But I rarely … Continue reading Surviving ourselves
We had a long overdue heart to heart. The Giver and I. It boiled down – as it usually does – to trust. You see my Creator and I had not been seeing eye to eye. But I had finally come to the point of acknowledging: What you are uncovering in me is worth discovering. What … Continue reading When I doubt the Giver
It hit me as I was listening to yet another podcast about fully accepting yourself and living joyfully in the moment – that I still wasn’t quite “there”. I still struggle with my thoughts. I still feel angry sometimes for no good reason. I still get insecure or unsure of my decisions. Do these women … Continue reading Another round of blues – will healing ever happen?
I was the only 30 something year old in the course. The rest of the college kids looked to be in their late teens. I was thinking that I was closer in age to the professor than the students and then suddenly, in the pages of the textbook, I saw my ex husband. I had … Continue reading NPD 101: How to recognize if it’s narcissistic personality disorder
Love is not seeing how much s*** you can put up with from another human being. We think that if we continually turn the other cheek, look the other way, forgive and allow it to happen again that we are somehow being loving. But here’s the thing: we’re allowing them to get away with bad … Continue reading This isn’t love
I want to wear black. Everyday. Because there is no color right now in my life. And I want to cover my head and throw ashes on it. I want everyone who sees me to know that my life is not OK in any way, that it has been forever altered and that a … Continue reading Permission to grieve
She was the latest and greatest: Rub-A-Dub dolly, the baby doll you could bathe in the bathtub. You could even wash her hair. I loved her with all the fervent devotion of a four-year old and I would lovingly comb her wet, messy “doo” with my little fingers after every bath. However the eyes of … Continue reading The dragon and the dolly
You are not alone. I promise you that whatever you are facing today, hundreds – no, thousands – of others have faced as well. You are surrounded by past and present lives who have felt exactly what you are feeling. You are not alone. Yours is a unique combination of circumstances, a different mix, but … Continue reading Who’s got your back?
Thank you for showing me who you are.However I will now choose to disregard it.I refuse to believe it.I will continue trying to change you and to make this into something it can never be.You see, what you showed me is not what i want to see.I want you to be loving, and rational, and … Continue reading Thank you for showing me who you are